it seems to me that life goes on whether or not we like the way life goes on and so we have a couple of choices which mostly have to do with whether or not we wish to participaate to make things a lot nicer or whether we wish to just dive in and fuck it all up for ourselves and for everyone else and then you know i still think it probably doesn't really matter matter in the sense that we came to believe in church that our behavir matters, i mean there isn't any hell to speak of but there is another thing much worse, loneliness
